Late Nights

late at night im alone and bored. i usually txt a couple of ppl watch a lil tv. should study but idk, its jus not in my blood for some reason. anyway, its the late nights when i do my serious deep thinking. i like to stay up late n think while no one is around me. where i cannot be interrupted and lose my train of thought. its the late nights where i actually make my decisons ,being the indecisive person i am, this process takes a very long time. but also theres a bad part of late nights. i become so depressed, i usually cry about it cuz noone can see me or hear me. i think about my lonely ass love life...the word boyfriend isnt even in my vocabulary. i think about how i wish i had someone to come home to after a long day of work next to going to class every wed n tues. i think n question myself  "damn how long will this bullshit last?" late nights are good but to a certain extent. i hate them..simply because i dont like being alone...i like this blog stuff cuz i dont have to get up n get paper n pencil to write it down (thats how i vent) but like everyday...every late night im learning to let go and let God. goodnight.